I couldn't help but dream and pretend it was reality. The light from the sun beaming in through the partially drawn blinds was not specificially for me, nor the gentle rain outside to bring nourishment and strength to the spring flowers, nor the flowers...but I could close my eyes and dream. Scheme, hardly for I am NO good at that. and fat chance it would ever work, so I sit...letting my nose suck up the scents of spring through the open window...and pray.
"OH GOD may there be someone for me, or just bring me back home and I will sit and cry in the corner of heaven, wondering...what I did wrong. I had a song but no one willing to sing along and I had a dream that no one else wanted to share. I had no one to care...and love or be loved by, and forever it was only about being there for others, loving everyone else, doing for those who couldn't for themselves, and caring for the uncared for, and loving the unloved...the weak and infirm, the forgotten...THOSE YEARNING for love but for whom love was forever seemingly out of reach.
Oh but wait.
FUCK!
)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
The love in his eyes...was not for me. I knew it but...I couldn't help myself. I felt him in a way I cannot explain but there it was...and he REFUSED to acknowledge me. He ignored in such an obvious way that it stung like the stingers of a million honeybees and yet I just could not turn away.
He was and is DEFINITELY NOT the handsomest of dudes nor the most exciting BUT....he was to me. Not the brightest either I was willing to wager, but then who the fuck cares when you are in love. When he loves you he just IS Einstein and Thomas Alva Edison and that Franklin dude out there playing with lightning and how bright was THAT? Lincoln defending black people, and of course that was OH SO stupid. Right?
Maybe he isn't perfect and I suppose that is true, but DAMMIT. He is for me I heard myself think and for me? He was EVERYTHING I could have wanted...and wanted I did. Just something that made me want to know what it felt like, having his arms around me and his lips pressed against mine, and...
EVERY NIGHT when the lights were turned off and the night breezes would move through the window like a lush hush softly caressing the curtains and teasing the lamp shades and the window shades...the paintings on the walls quivering as I watched mesmerized by the slow-motion notion of love dancing around the room.
EVERY NIGHT as I closed my eyes and to no surprise lightning bugs and evening shade and a ticker-tape parade and angels and cupids and devilishly good looking dudes with evil grins and gleaming shards of fire GLISTENING off their chromium wings...would leap, and like a bride to a groom, I wanted to tell him...
DUDE, BRING ME UP into your arms...and dance with me, dude.
DEARLY BELOVED,, FOR GOD'S SAKE...
Baby, DANCE with me.
PLEASE baby DANCE with me. God damn I need you SOO bad.
and he would smile at me and without a word take me in his arms, and hold me and love me with his eyes, his lips, his breath, and he would whisper...
"Baby, I got a heart...for you."
http://youtu.be/-geWdEWE1-8
LET THE MUSIC PLAY, and let your heart say to mine YOU SO FINE, as we let our fingers play on each others faces, swirling traces of love across the warm soft skin and lips, with tips of FIRE breathing LIFE into our bones, as the thrones of HEAVEN sit waiting and watching but we are FAR too busy letting our bodies sway agaist each other...SWAY to the music as it kept a romantic hot steady beat and blew heat to our feet, and MEANING to our existences as our sentences became more breathy and our breath more shallow and our eyes more hallow, and our eyes more full and we became as one in the STILL of the night as we DANCE so close...SO close...periously close to our bursting into flames. Shame about the love so fine, that mighta been mine.
NIGHT HEAT...THE BEAT, and...
I couldn't remember our names and couldn't stop the feelings and the healings of the pain I had known for so long as I couldn't find a mate, but then fate...and as hate turned into love, and the old began to be shoved away by YOUR new..I knew.
YOU ARE MY FUTURE! OH PLEASE GOD...let HIM be the one.
and the run turned to fun and your arms overtook me and your HOT SWEET LIPS
caused a ruckus and a fire, while our love went higher and our FEET came up off the ground and your arms came around me, and GOD HOLY DAMN FUCK I THINK I JUST DIED.
Then...
I woke up..and as I did I wondered,
maybe?
"OH GOD may there be someone for me, or just bring me back home and I will sit and cry in the corner of heaven, wondering...what I did wrong. I had a song but no one willing to sing along and I had a dream that no one else wanted to share. I had no one to care...and love or be loved by, and forever it was only about being there for others, loving everyone else, doing for those who couldn't for themselves, and caring for the uncared for, and loving the unloved...the weak and infirm, the forgotten...THOSE YEARNING for love but for whom love was forever seemingly out of reach.
Oh but wait.
FUCK!
)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
The love in his eyes...was not for me. I knew it but...I couldn't help myself. I felt him in a way I cannot explain but there it was...and he REFUSED to acknowledge me. He ignored in such an obvious way that it stung like the stingers of a million honeybees and yet I just could not turn away.
He was and is DEFINITELY NOT the handsomest of dudes nor the most exciting BUT....he was to me. Not the brightest either I was willing to wager, but then who the fuck cares when you are in love. When he loves you he just IS Einstein and Thomas Alva Edison and that Franklin dude out there playing with lightning and how bright was THAT? Lincoln defending black people, and of course that was OH SO stupid. Right?
Maybe he isn't perfect and I suppose that is true, but DAMMIT. He is for me I heard myself think and for me? He was EVERYTHING I could have wanted...and wanted I did. Just something that made me want to know what it felt like, having his arms around me and his lips pressed against mine, and...
EVERY NIGHT when the lights were turned off and the night breezes would move through the window like a lush hush softly caressing the curtains and teasing the lamp shades and the window shades...the paintings on the walls quivering as I watched mesmerized by the slow-motion notion of love dancing around the room.
EVERY NIGHT as I closed my eyes and to no surprise lightning bugs and evening shade and a ticker-tape parade and angels and cupids and devilishly good looking dudes with evil grins and gleaming shards of fire GLISTENING off their chromium wings...would leap, and like a bride to a groom, I wanted to tell him...
DUDE, BRING ME UP into your arms...and dance with me, dude.
DEARLY BELOVED,, FOR GOD'S SAKE...
Baby, DANCE with me.
PLEASE baby DANCE with me. God damn I need you SOO bad.
and he would smile at me and without a word take me in his arms, and hold me and love me with his eyes, his lips, his breath, and he would whisper...
"Baby, I got a heart...for you."
http://youtu.be/-geWdEWE1-8
LET THE MUSIC PLAY, and let your heart say to mine YOU SO FINE, as we let our fingers play on each others faces, swirling traces of love across the warm soft skin and lips, with tips of FIRE breathing LIFE into our bones, as the thrones of HEAVEN sit waiting and watching but we are FAR too busy letting our bodies sway agaist each other...SWAY to the music as it kept a romantic hot steady beat and blew heat to our feet, and MEANING to our existences as our sentences became more breathy and our breath more shallow and our eyes more hallow, and our eyes more full and we became as one in the STILL of the night as we DANCE so close...SO close...periously close to our bursting into flames. Shame about the love so fine, that mighta been mine.
NIGHT HEAT...THE BEAT, and...
I couldn't remember our names and couldn't stop the feelings and the healings of the pain I had known for so long as I couldn't find a mate, but then fate...and as hate turned into love, and the old began to be shoved away by YOUR new..I knew.
YOU ARE MY FUTURE! OH PLEASE GOD...let HIM be the one.
and the run turned to fun and your arms overtook me and your HOT SWEET LIPS
caused a ruckus and a fire, while our love went higher and our FEET came up off the ground and your arms came around me, and GOD HOLY DAMN FUCK I THINK I JUST DIED.
Then...
I woke up..and as I did I wondered,
maybe?
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